If you need to forgive to be free,

that's fine but don't tell me it's what I need.

Don’t look at me like that, 

it doesn't make you better than me

See, I did things backwards, I didn't feel

anger till too late, before I could heal.

Instead I hated myself, ashamed

It was to myself I assigned the blame.

I lived so long like that, until

at last with righteous anger: I became

stronger than I ever was.

Hatred is my duty

In my revenge there is beauty;

poetry to name and shame,

that's my new game.

Mr Budgens

Tom Oulds Davis

Tom Cookson

Matthew Fox

I was incorrect to find my self at fault

It was he that committed the assault.

I must remember it was him that was wrong.

Staying angry keeps me strong.

You want to forgive, okay

But don't sing me your forgiveness song

your hymns of superiority

I am my priority.

If holding anger, no matter how heavy

keeps me from hating my self, I'm ready

to be the one to hold hate steady,

directed where it's due.

Go ahead forgive, do what's best for you

Back off.

Leave me to my hate.

There’s no changing now, it’s too late.

I don’t want this ‘help’ from you

Of course I’m still angry - this trauma

is still my unfortunate truth.