A bit of Rosa’s political history

Essentially I woke up from a waking coma of Depression, trauma, chronic pain in late 2016. None of those things are gone but enough of a change happened such that, my difficulty living while still very fucking hard went from limiting to galvanising for my activism.

I want to be very clear that this was not the result of looking at things differently or making a right choice. There is a treatment called RTMS for treatment resistant depression and after 20 years of trying EVERYTHING, this finally worked.! I was less consumed by suicidal ideation and could think clearer.

The narrow focus of my advocacy as a confessional artist was a result of despite my dire concern about things like deforestation and asking questions that meant my mum taught me the word philosophy what I was 9, I was so consumed with my own suffering that I became politically useless to anyone other than those with whom I shared experience.

The relationship suffering has to advocacy is the same - justification

Then: to make it worth living with what happened to me, by using that experience to help others less prepared to share it.

I lost all sense of privacy, was publicly outed as pan/ bi by a girl who lied, saying she liked me. And the way day she outed me went down meant loosing any semblance of normality.

So, for me, whose queerness and other incredibly private issues were exposed against my will, people knowing by business was not new.

Knowing that ignorance was the cause of so much of the cruelty that had impacted me so badly I understood that if I was willing to speak about this it could raise awareness and benefit others.

Now: to make it worth living what is still an incredibly hard life by advancing a politics of liberation for all.

Bottom line is that only something as big as changing the world makes it worth living in this much mental and physical pain. I need to do this to live so the ruling class really would have to kill me to make me stop.

NB Yes, I have Ellis now and having love in your life is wonderful but no one can resist suicide forever just because someone wants them to, no matter how much they love them.

We have nothing to loose but one another.

These words doesn’t mean we don’t value one another. The point is that the thing we value so much in each other is our commitment and preparedness to face risk for the cause

Neither of us would ever deny the other our life’s calling, even if our lives were on the line, we respect each other as revolutionaries too much to do that.